-the colours of my life-

The end of 2015

2015 has been a really eventful year.
First and foremost, the most amazing thing is I'm actually dating a guy. After dating girls for 8 years, this is probably the most shocking news ever.
We spent about 8 months undercover. Really thankful that it is finally over.
It has been a really rocky journey. Starting from February. The day we 'ran away' from office and hopped into a taxi and you grabbed my hand.
This was shortly followed by movie marathons.
My birthday celebration.
The 36 roses.
Countdown to my birthday.
It was really sweet.
The sweetness came with pain. Lots.
You couldnt decide. Bring yourself to face what is infront of you. Silly me stuck through it all. Booked a trip with you. Decided that this was going to be the deciding factor.
The trip was probably the sweetest ever. After MBS. The long walks. Running for ferry. Finding the hotel. Meals together. Being sheltered from the rain. It was a memory I wanted to keep if we dont make it together.
And you decided.
Of course. It was not smooth. Drama after drama.
And of course. I changed my job. That was the next test.
It was difficult. Painful. But we stuck through it. It came with tears, arguments, sweetness, happiness. Nevertheless we went through it all.
The hardest part of telling the parents was a blessing to us. I was amazed at the openess and willingness to accept.
And finally, it was over.
The family trip was amazing. There are no other words to describe it.
As we look forward to our future together. I really wished the pain was worth. I wished my effort was worth it all.
I never asked for riches. I never asked for a huge diamond ring. I dont need a big grand proposal. I dont need an expensive lavish wedding. I just want us to be together.
The last thing on Earth was to argue over where we should stay.
Wasn't communication something we agreed upon?
Talk about being modern. That was definitely not it.
I just wanted to plan ahead. Of course not everything works out the way we want it to be. But it was just a suggestion because the first thing when a couple gets married is not the wedding photos or the dinner that is the most important. Its the roof over out heads and where we will spend our time together. Its just a temporary arrangement till we get our own place.
2016 for me looks like a uncertain road. Uncertainty makes me scared. I fear uncertainty. It makes me an insecured person. I know there will be many happy things and many problems coming my way. I guess the best is to remain strong and fight it through.
And i turn t-h-i-r-t-y! Omg!

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 11:37:00 PM