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Friday was seriously e worst day I had..i really felt like giving up..one day can change everything..i hated EVERYTHING in my life - myself, my job, e airport, e pple around me..
I woke up late..around 8+ with a slight runny flu..reached T3 at 10am..pass office was damn long..so went to eat at Macs..den went school for an hr of slacking at Wellness Centre..my car was full of birdshit..gross..so had to clean, top up petrol n went back..dad came back..n..had a big misunderstanding with Mayling..think we were so pissed with each other we just put down e phone on each other..she said there was an email..i see no email..den supposed to be only T2 & new shops in T3..i tot it was all shops that didnt have..so well..e contractors tat went with me were humorous..
den got Harj's msg..i felt really bad..i couldnt make any time for her..not only her..but i usually spend at least 3 days a week with her..sometimes we see each other everyday..i hafnt seen her since i last worked..which was Saturday 12/1..
I was damn shag by e time i got back..was feeling v v tired..my body was breaking down n i could feel it..e 4 of us were at Toastbox..when i got a call from Mayling to take things from her at the pass entrance..truthfully, i felt tat was e last straw..i really felt v bad giving Esther & her such a black face n not saying bye..but i was really to my max already..all i could do was to face my com n cry whilst typing her e report.....
Sat was much beta..my body has finally given way..having a fever..came at 7am, went home at 10am..still had to put on a strong front infront of mum n dad..couldnt let them know i'm sick..went shopping with mum at TM..bought my new yr clothings..yay..but was feeling damn weak n lost interest v fast..slept all e way to T3..had a 2nd round of lunch with Vivien & Le Ying & slept for another hr at Coffee Bean with QH..
had light dinner with QH n Le Ying @ Ya Kun den accompanied Le Ying a few LD boxes..had to borrow screw driver from one of the shops..den i did paperwork..omg..tat was e killer..i had such a bad headache..sigh..
tdy morn n early afternoon was spent packing my room..i was still feeling sick of coz..but had to pretend i was alright..i got lethargic damn fast n really didnt wanna pack e last box..thinking of climbing up n down e ladder juz put me off..back here once more..lots of things to clear again....
scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 5:01:00 PM
wanna change my blog skin..but i'm juz so lazy..zzzz..all the html stuff will drive me nuts right now..no patience..prob after e event..
everyday is juz so busy..my next week..is even busier..help..i think i'm gonna suffocate..i need breathing space..
slightly earlier day tdy..cleared most of my paper work.. *yay* n went 2 have supper with mayling..not e best time to have a meal but i guess it was still a great meal after all :)
whilst chatting with ee theng tdy over dinner..was juz talking abt wat i like abt e 'hers'..n e more i talk..e more i realise tat she was more n more e type i was talking abt..tats not e greatest news on earth but i realised tat i may juz fall for her one day..or maybe i am already on e way to..since i told harj last week? i guess it's already a budding feeling..maybe i shld juz steer away from her more from now on..unless necessary, which has always been e case..anw, i hope she's not like me (though i suspect) if not..i'll be starting to go all out again (like i always used to)..n be e crazy girl who loves to juz fall in love.. *tsk tsk*
feelings aside..work is finally going down..hope to spend more time on sch from now on..nitto start catching up..gosh..JIA YOU!!!
scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 1:03:00 AM
one word: T-I-R-E-D
a full day of sch is all it takes to drain me of wats left..moreover for malay..it's like OMG..it's not exactly hard but lots of self-studying to be done..sometimes i juz feel like switching off my phone..it's a gd thing tat they're asking me qns n things..but..somehow i feel tat it's also giving me unwanted pressure which makes me even more tired..sigh..
my bad habit is acting up again..always get attracted to someone..e good thing..i'll be more motivated n driven to do stuff for that someone..which means things will be done faster, n more efficiently..e bad thing..i'll do dumb stuff n get my mood all mixed up..which i am now..n it's making me damn pissed off coz i juz wanna drive to the other end of singapore n back but i'm mentally n physically too tired to carry tat out..besides this..i shldnt have made tat trip to pay my hp bill..it got me feeling even more irritated with myself..
seriously..i need a long rest..that's all...tonight heck all work..i'm gonna read my book n slp..
scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 11:35:00 PM
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scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 12:51:00 PM
Airport everyday..everyday is faced with new problems..Sat I was alone from 5pm-11pm..QH came down n have dinner with me..love ya :)
we spent e dinner catching up..sharing my headaches..n stress..dis stress is diff from wat i've always been going thru..prob after those panic attacks, depression n r/s have made me stronger tat I've learnt how to control my emotions more..
Sun i die die also dont wanna go early..but had to send e China Bags to them for lucky draw collection..thank dad for lending me e car to drive down..saved at least 45mins.. =)
painted house..n attempted packing my room..still cant find all my necklaces..grrr..i wan cry liao..decided to dress up abit for work today..necklace, earrings, pretty top..hee..it's SUNDAY!!
Bought dis nice nice Carlo Rino bag for CNY..damn it..my life is really airport tat i end up shopping in there as well.. *faints* still wanna go T1 n get Polo T-shirts..hehe..
Bro joined me for dinner..happy happy..i feel so loved.. :)
morning today all alone..mayling came at 930, vivien came at 10..went Commercial Division for meeting..one word S-T-R-E-S-S..so many things to do..their standards are juz way too absurd..so wat if it's a world-class airport? everyone here become slaves n work like they nvr work b4?
cant forsee the next few days..got proj meetings, T3 datelines..Bak Kwa queuing..
really wanna thank dad for lending me e car at night..save my travelling time..dont worry..i'll pump petrol for u ok.. =P
scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 4:36:00 PM
am i juz so damn suay or wat..hiaz..there goes my Saturday once more..
scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 2:15:00 AM
now in T3..for once..the phone hasn't rang for some replenishments or any miscellaneous matters whatsoever.. :)
yesterday was pretty hectic..dunno why so many things crop up all of a sudden..boo..i was walking around like i nvr walked around T3 b4..sigh..
when i left around 11.30pm..i was unsure if there was a 36..checking e board which states the timing..it said 10.44pm!! WTH..but e day b4 didnt i take e bus home at 11.15pm?? well, i patiently waited n yeah..e bus came..hee..
tdy morning..silly store come disturb me..6.03am! morning call ah..actually was awake b4 tat..juz tat i was in e toilet..zzz..replenish replenish..not my fault u all 24hrs we only 16hrs a day huh..
had to take stock from basement store..sigh..early in e morning..so hungry n gotta move all this stuff.. *sobs*
had meeting with Vivien about the Duties of part-timers, followed by a super long meeting with Mayling..think got an hour ah..so much to discuss abt..my head in abit of whirl..until now, i'm still not convinced that i had so much potential to be an Event's Manager..dis one is so much different as compared to the Olympics Event! it's like so much harder..e Olympics Event mgr was obviously slacking coz he obviously had nothing much to do..zzz...
Mayling has gone home..Vivien is fast aslp..my siao char boh so tired..everyday work 7am shopping promotion..den 5.30pm airport guide till midnight.. *sayang* for e first time..i feel FREE... :)
scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 8:00:00 PM
in my opinion, everyday is hell for me..my life:
wake up - T3 - school - T3 - home
YES..tats it..e only thing i get to do besides this is to eat, bathe, slp, n blog..hmmm..maybe i shld eliminate e slp part..
sorry darling, i know how u feel..miss all e days we used to hang out after sch everyday..in town, pp or anywhere we decide to go..with no plans n juz slacking around n passing time..i'll make time for u soon ok? juz nitto get all my paperwork settled n i guess things would be much better..i'm sorry i cant be with u for the 3D2N camp..i dont feel safe leaving e airport for too long..n i think i'll end up leaving camp halfway to go back to T3..hope u understand.. *hugs*
dear QH, u dont worry too much abt me too..i still can handle e stress as for now - it's a diff type of stress from fishy/school..n i have seriously no time to think abt tat idiot..dont care whether in sg or not..my life is fine :) we shld catch up soon ok?
there's seriously lots of things to do in T3 tat i'm v numb to e fact tat i'm actually in e transit mall..i've gone to disliking letting e stores know i'm e event mgr coz i know they'll come n bug e daylights out of me..i'm juz C-A-L-I-S-T-A..nothing much to say..juz tat everyday has been superly busy..
now in Intro to Physical Science..i'll say it's a little silly..wat to do..muz clear mods..
no time to upload photos =(
lets talk abt my New Yr Resolution:
the first 2 that i had on my list didnt make it..
1st one was broken on 7th Jan..subsequently i tot it was juz one day..BUT..it continued e entire week..
2nd one..i dunno if it has been broken..it seems like so since i started work in T3..but well..time will tell..
-i juz need slp-
scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 4:14:00 PM
1 week seriously flew..like the speed of light..it's already almost 15days into Year 2008..n it feels like only 5 days!
7th January was spent doing an orientation in Whitley Secondary..surprisingly, handling Secondary 1s was 10 times worse than handling the Sec4s n 5s in Ping Yi Secondary..can lose my voice ok!! the day passed quite quickly..lots of time was wasting shouting at the kids to make them shut up..3rd day in school all like best friends already..omg..
didnt go tournie..was too tired...so Harj n i spent e evening walking around Orchard..hehe..
8th Jan had briefing for an even happening in T3..it was pretty rushed coz e guy in charge had juz left like that leaving everything in a mess..helped until 7pm..giving out lucky draw coupons in T1/T2 n airsite or landsite..rushed to NYP for tournie..was super dead already..even after e game ended..i wasnt even warmed up..gosh..
9th Jan was burnt with e entire day in e airport..in juz tat day..i already knew e airport on e back of my hand..i walked up n down T3 Transit at least 20times..within the public area at least 50times..running here and there..even gotta go T1/T2 for a short while to check on some stuff..gosh..tiring lehz..even fishy i also dont walk so much..surprising things happen over dinner..wells..nothing much i can say abt it..boss drove us home =)
10th Jan had no shift but they asked me to come to hand over since i went thru all e shit on the 9th..i ended up staying all e way till 6pm..briefing pple, telling them wat to do..evening went dinner with Harj n Deb..supposed to be with Lily but she last min got meeting..sads....it was fun..lots of crap..as usual..hee..our kill e dino n monster session with giraffe mediator =)
11th Jan was not much a difference..i still had to reach by 8am..but for a different purpose..to go for meeting..i kinda suspected the agenda with the actions and things they asked me to do..but there was no concrete picture..so was left hanging..
went K Box with EMU!! wee..11am-7pm..SHIOK..i had so much fun!!we sang the oldest songs that made us seem like we were 30..n managed to do duets that we nvr done b4..wow..we are pro!! hee..took lots of videos~ wee...
12th Jan was like the rest..i still came at 8am..n stayed till 5.30pm where my in charge sent me to pp to work..Mayling is really nice..but she loves shooting me too..omg..y everywhere i go i sure kena shoot my someone de..boo..think my life is to be put there and be 'bullied'..haha...
work at fishy wasnt v smooth..i was already v tired..n had alot of things on my mind..my 1st mistake was barely after 7pm..where i gave e wrong takeaway..it was terrible man..n i had to take a cab all e way to near SGH to send e right food..cel shouted at me..i felt real bad..i actually paid for the cab fare..near 10pm cel brought me out to sit..n asked me whether i'm still happy working there..seroiusly, i was too tired to think of wat to say..after talking for abt 10mins..i made my way back to e airport..we had meeting n did work till 3am..wow..n mayling sent me home..she stays at Marine Drive..luckily..
13th Jan was spent unpacking e boxes of my room..managed to clear most of them..was feeling pretty tired n sick..so mum called in sick for me at fishy..felt better after that..n went back to T3..wanted to help with e collection of lucky draw coupons..but ended up helping with paper work..all e way till midnight..n mayling sent me home once again..but dis time..we brought work home..wat to do..all e reports were due tdy.. *faints* finished counting n got some slp..mayling didnt even slp..power....
today took cab to work..i took a cab to Marine Drive den we took cab to airport..e entire morning was spent clearing e paper work n solving problems with the DFS n Nuance-Watsons..bad bad..had lunch with everybody..felt like puking so didnt eat anything..n took cab to school..gosh..i'm so lost...but at least i went..
class was fine..juz a little dry..but i didnt feel slpy..ended early like 6.25..and went airport..almost froze to death in the bus..crazy bus uncle..met QH n CX..coz CX flying to NZ..QH so unlucky..lost her wallet n hp..sigh..not a great day for her at all either..
went to get dinner n tidied up my excel sheet..think i too tired or wat la..seriously no mood to have anything..all was half eaten..n i felt like puking..sigh..home i dont get back my old sickness again........................
Mayling was v nice..she actually came to airport to fetch me home..lol..touched...haha.. :)
scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 1:35:00 AM
gosh...i've been so so busy..dunno where the time went..lets have some recap wat i did..
27th December --- went training in the evening..den went watch movie with Harj n Jac..we watched The Legend..nice movie..had dinner at NYDC..
27th December --- went K box with EMU!! at Suntec..had fun..pity..only 11-3pm..coz she had company dinner..sobs..we had lots of fun in the arcade too!! Basketball challenge!! met QH, CX, CC, Alvin, Daphne n Heather for dinner..had lots of fun too..lots of laughter..we all still nvr change..hee..
29th December --- went school training..n MPCC..Emu came to play!! hee.... school training..so many pple broke their racket string..bad omen...zzzz....didnt work at night..stay at home..hee..u know why? coz i didnt get schedule..can u believe it? on a Sat night..they actually called me whilst i was playing badminton..i guessed is to ask me work..well, i'm not obligated to..1st u didnt give me..i ask if u need u say 6 staff enuff..den i already out...call me at 3+ expect me go home juz to take my stuff n work? nope nope......
30th December --- worked morning..met QH, EMU, Tammy & Yu Ling for dinner in the evening..we went Waraku..den..after deciding a long long time..we took e table from my house n went Tammy's house to play MJ..crappy MJ..anyhow change seats..crap..eat ice-cream..lots n lots of rubbish!! laugh so so much..den we went NTU coz gotta send yuling back..on e way saw an accident..gosh..so terrible..shall not describe..we spent some time in NTU..e hall quite nice actually..n we heard some stories from yuling..omg..i nvr knew staying in hall or being in e west was so freaky..i always tot singapore was like so so safe...reached home only abt 5.45am..wow...
31st December --- started painting my house gate n grills..e gd news -- i'm paid to do this..e bad news -- it's super messy..ok la..i enjoyed e entire process afterall..e sunning..e painting..getting sticky..pespiring..smelling e thinner..being watched by e neighbours..it's alright after all la..hee..played MJ at night till 12MN...weee...so tired..not enuff slp..happy new year..
1st Jan --- continued painting gate..i v gd ok..wake up early juz to paint..like 8am..hee..went TM to shop in the afternoon..oh..lucky we went TM..i totally forgot abt collecting the rackets that went sent for stringing..can u imagine if i nvr collect them..3 of us will be down w/o rackets!! *faints* evening went briefing with harj..
2nd Jan --- paint paint paint...den competition at night..SMU vs SIM..wah..terrible..trashed so badly..it's been a long time since i went for competition..really..i was so nervous n trembling in e court..can u believe it..dots..went to have dinner with QH, Peiren, Tammy n samantha at AMK Hub..den we went home..so tired..
3rd Jan --- woke up at 6am..but ended up still taking a cab to Ping Yi Sec..was really nervous..but actually it turned out ok...so tiring..
4th Jan --- took bus! but late..coz e silly 222 goes one big round around Bedok..shoot..competition at night..NYP vs SMU..lost e first 2 singles..den Esther won e 3rd Singles..tdy i didnt feel as stressed..i felt motivated..although i let go of the first 2 shots in front..as usual..coz i was lazy to move my fat legs..i started to push myself to concentrate..n u know..it unleashed some of e old skills that we used to possess..some of e shots were really v v nice! n guess wat! we won!! played 3 sets...gosh......n...amanda n tammy played e 2nd doubles..n they won too!! WEEE..we won NYP!!! haha...so happy....didnt join TK pple for dinner coz i was damn shag..so followed peiren's car home..we had dinner at wang jiao cafe..yum...realised tat peiren n i got quite a few things in common..wee..i got a new K Box fren!! haha..cant wait..
Today --- woke up at 6.30am..went to send David off at e airport..paint paint gate..den it started to rain...so i went play badz instead with cc n alvin..den work..so so tiring..my ankle hurts, my toes hurt..my knee hurts..ouch..gosh..i dunno how i'm gonna do full shift tmr..
k la..though i was damn busy..it wasnt wasting time nor slacking..i actually got a chance to catch up with my ex-team mates, some bonding with my present team mates..did some exercise...n minimal work..
talking abt work..work seems to be getting bad recently..heard lots of bad stuff..wat happen to all e gd..tdy..initially i tot it was a gd start..tired a new method for greeter n it actually worked..but..got some negative feedback n i felt so de-motivated...sigh...
wat a long post..hahaz..i shld get some slp..12.45am liao!
shall talk abt my new year resolution n put up e photos some other time... :)
scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 12:13:00 AM
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