-the colours of my life-

felt short of breath.den didnt feel hungry for dinner for once.den felt nauseaus with headache in class..not sure if it's e doing of the vaccination or e accumulation of recent activites or juz a combination of all..

wishing for a gd nites slp.

pls make it quickly go away..

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 11:37:00 PM

new major problems:
1. spamming my blog
2. guessing e sender of sms
3. drinking lots of sweet stuff
4. eating unhealthy food
5. playing e com non-stop
and the list goes on...

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 3:56:00 PM

i had a great time yesterday.

for a moment.it was 99% out of my mind tat things had changed.wanted to catch 2012.but it was fully packed everywhere..sad..so we went to check out Orchard Central..n met Kenneth n Mabel there..

headed to have dinner.chatting throughout, b4 heading to Chinatown to check out THB rates..

it was really great..n i was sad to part..

there will always be that hole.n i guess it's gonna take a long time.

curled up in my nap blanket hugging baby stwipes...

couldnt get up dis morn.dunno wat time i slept.but i still got up n went to Tamp Polyclinic to get some pheumo 23 jab..i hav actually no idea wat it was n how it was spelt.but i still went anyway..

i'm so tired.

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 1:17:00 PM

i didnt know how i slept.

i only rmb looking at my baby tiger love.

he looked so sad. so i threw him to e corner of e bed.

something which i could nvr bear to do..

i woke up b4 e alarm.found my left eye glued together.

shit.i tot i got a sore eye or something.thank goodness it was nothing.

finally got up after some time.didnt go for interview.didnt feel like travelling.n i discovered it was happily located in novena.lost a job opportunity.wasted.

looked in e mirror n felt dull n unappealing.so i slapped on make-up b4 going to class.

but Dave said i looked pale.sigh.

i met Harj n Christina during break.so conincidental! harj said i look kinda down.2nd person of e day.

took a bus to airport.went T2 to put my bag.Ernest said i look pale too.ARGH.why oh why.i already put on make-up and plastered on a smile!

went for mystery shopper.dining alone really feels weird.perhaps i shld get used to it.person who greeted me at e door reminded me of................... :( i think i'm juz super suay..

had a great experience..for once..amazing..at least it did some gd to my mood.finally ate something more substantial..their chicken mayo crossiant is gd :)

was msging throughout e meal..n i received one sms tat almost took away my entire appetite..

AM I SO SHALLOW?

i cant believe anyone would think tat way.it juz made tat hole bigger.crap.there shld b limit to how much water can be dispelled from e body.how can it juz turn on itself every few hrs?

got brownie for bro.but i forgot to bring it home.

i cuddled stripes.juz love him too much.i'll miss e bickering n bullying.

oh wells.

time to adjust.

wonder wat i shld do tmr after class.shld i go catch a loner movie for e 1st time?

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 12:06:00 AM

it hurts

like a hole in the heart

like u lost half of ur soul

juz wish i can turn back time

but..

there's no more u-turn sign ahead

all i can do is to look forward

and forward.....

love is unconditional

but e peak has reached

n wat u have is no longer urs

i juz need it to go away..

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 2:17:00 AM

not sure if i shld mention.but since it's been bugging me it's better to juz mention it..

as my fb shoutout..i dreamt of someone who's working at e airport.in one of e shop tat is located almost at e other end of e terminal.but it is one of my fav shops.anywhere in Singapore I will surely make a stop there.actually any country! LOL..

anw, dis particular someone..i only spoke twice.once was w gary..when he asked whether I could buy my nice pink+white top at 40% off..e other was when I enquired abt a bag tat I was eyeing for quite some time.but cuz it was pretty ex so was reconsidering again n again if i shld get it. period.

so i was telling fei all abt it..n shortly after fei came back from toilet n i was munching on her tau suan.fei said 'wei, got someone looking for u.' i was like who? den i looked out n got a shock.speak of e devil! omg..really v coincidental can

oh wells.i shld try n stop thinking abt it.if there's fate we'll meet again.prob i shld take e first initiative to talk..nvr know wat's in stored for me..

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 11:51:00 PM

Finally figured out why I couldnt upload photos!
Here they are:

Mum's bday cake

New York New York's Dessert:

left: Lake Chocolate

right: Mud Pie with Ice Cream

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 10:32:00 PM

i'm finally done with perdisco! wee..hard work..but i think i got it done in less than 20hrs.. *wipe perspiration* now i'm left with:
1. Economics test on Monday
2. Cash Accounting test
3. MYOB assignment
4 Perdisco assignment
5. Economics essay (no topic yet???)
i'm quite glad that i'm almost jobless..with all to finish.where got time to study?

didnt meet the Visa Deployment pple on Friday..there was no plans after dinner and i ended class at 10pm..sads..was really looking forward to going out with them..there will b a next time!

ended up having a surprise bday for mum..cuz she went to hav dinner with her frens..dad bot a cake n wanted us to prepare when he went to fetch mum home! but his estimation was SO OUT!he's 20mins was actually only 10mins n bro n i were like mad pple trying to prepare e cake! wanna add pic but blogger not letting me put in pic..zzz... will try again later

yesterday went to try New York New York's dessert..actually wanted to hav a bday dinner for mum but we had my niece's 1yr old bday..n we had dinner..so only left space for dessert!looked as nice as e pic..but didnt taste as nice as i imagined it to be..

sang K today....wee.....happy happy.....

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 10:22:00 PM

weather so cold recently..

buses are worse..they're like e Artic..everytime i take bus home from school..i feel like i'll freeze to death..dont wanna change bus cuz i gotta wait very very long for another bus..i juz wanna get home..

went to OGL today to return Geraldine a thumbdrive.it's been only 3 days.n i dont feel anymore warmth in e office..i felt weird..hiaz..i really miss events..like events..not visa type..visa is really boring everyone out..zzz..Evon: welcome to our world of VISA..we always tell ourselves tat it'll b over soon! but more n more Visa related stuff juz comes up..jobs for us..but not those tat u look forward to any longer..sad..miss days in airport.... :(

ok..back to murdering perdisco..really nitto finish it by sunday!

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 12:27:00 AM

first week being at home.so far so gd..

slacked e entire monday.crap.ok.i did some work.i went to perdisco to print my qns.den it was time for school..heck..i dunno y i have to take economics..anyway, it's EASY..but e stupid lecturer totally CMI la..hiyah..i only look forward going to accounting and cost accounting classes..thinking of him makes my blood boil!

already feeling broke..upset..dunno how to ask my parents for allowance again..hate tat feeling..if i work sunglass hut once a week.........................

1. lunch: average $5

2. dinner: average $5

3. transport+handphone

4. stationeries

5. buy stuff for myself?

no more clothes for a long time.no more fast food.koi max once a week.outing max once a week.shit..i will nitto find another job to survive :(

-feeling cranky now-

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 11:06:00 PM

Hectic week..

Fall sick..stayed home today..feel so happy..haa..

S.H.E. came over the weekend..and we had a private meeting! check out FB for photos! so fun..so exciting!

last week of contract..............happy and sad to go......

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 9:27:00 PM