-the colours of my life-

hee..finally a night when i can choose not to study..these 4 days pass super fast! 4 papers down..left AIS on Sat at 1.30pm..the LAST paper of the entire exam..FASTER FASTER!!

hmm..past few days thinking too much..pretty unhappy..sometimes feel pretty left out..but maybe juz thinking too much.shldnt be too sensitive..anw, wasnt i not upset when i heard e news? so y am i so affected?

Ethics paper on Wed was fine..morn paper..was SO SO slpy..n i couldnt be bothered to wear nice nor use contacts..glasses..haa..hungry..went to get lunch at PP..

BAD BAD..got addicted to my Romantic Princess..not e most strategic timing..finished watching my last 2 episodes so that i was able to concentrate on my Income Tax fully..yeah..so much to revise..still nitto practise..omg..hiyah..juz try to finish as much as possible..at least got e distraction out of e way..hee..

Income Tax paper was OK..after paper went with Devin to ECP..den meet Harj..long time since we really went out..seriously, we were LOST on where to go..juz hop on to the 36 n went to Wheelock first..see if can find Mummy Lily..hmm..she not around..sads..everytime we go there she not there..transfer le ma? (oh..juz confirmed with KC she still there..hee..)

we walked n walked..all e way to Sakae @ ParkMall..didnt know wat else to hav..it's like JAM everywhere in town..so unfriendly to walk..nvr liked crowds..lucky Sakae@ ParkMall not crowded..though Fishy was FULL..

e lights at Orchard

GH's deco looks nice =)

Harj initially didnt wanna eat..but got tempted by e Teriyaki Chicken Ramen..lol..their service CMI..but they look short of staff..we had fun...laughter..crap..n LOST OF CRAP!! haa..i really felt free of all stress..like papers were over..haha..

can u imagine if she tries to squeeze all tat into her mouth? haha..i'm MEAN..

Full n contented =)

36 with Harj n I.. =)

we waited damn long for e bus at GH..decide to take cab..cross over to PS n this 36 which was unlit suddenly light up..cool..hee...

lol..i shld get to study..thinking of going bladding tmr..e weather is SO SO unpredictable....

drinking my Klassic..can feel myself with higher blood pressure..stomach muz be empty.......

stupid right ear bleeding again..ARGH..when will it heal n give me a break??

At QH's house..my hair so long le??

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 12:37:00 AM

yay..2 papers down..tmr one more..thurs one more..n i'm left with Saturday! pity it's the LAST paper of all..BOO..cant wait..AMA was fine..MPW..alamak..so theoretical..can die la..somemore..i studied e wrong chapter! can someone pls shake me awake..how can dis be..throw marks away =(

had dinner at home..after a LONG LONG time..eh..actually had dinner at home quite a few times dis week..but mostly is da bao eat alone..ok..is having dinner with my parents..actually Saturday had dinner with them..but we called in 933 Golden Pillow..not home cooked food..anyway, dad..had his mouth full n wanted to ask mum something..i heard..Hey, SHE n Hebe still using the timeline ah? i was like HUH? den mum said not sure...a bigger HUH came out..den i ask mum..wat is he asking? den she said..it's the SSE n PDE departments..AIYO..when i told them i heard SHE n Hebe coz so muffled..i couldnt stop laughing..omg..

okok..back to e books..hav been catching Romantic Princess..pretty funny..and Wu Zun is SO SO CUTE! haa..the other show with Hebe..called bull fighting..also not bad...hee...cant wait for these shows to finish showing!!! ahhhhh.........4 days to end of exams! :)

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 11:31:00 PM

omg..exams in 2 hours..i cannot take it anymore..i feel like giving up..i seriously have no confidence in AMA..i actually finished reading everything..but i seriously dunno how much went in..oh no...

haiz..kick out den kick out la..at least i tried my best......

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 10:20:00 AM

study study study n more STUDY!! i've seriously become a big slping worm..slp slp slp..haa..according to one of e prof..dis is a sign of mild depression..called dysthymic disorder..oohh..haa..6 more days at dis time i'll be FREE n working again! weee..

yst we had dis furniture designer come to our house..initially i tot mum n dad wanted to do up bro's room but u know wat? they wanna re-do my room too! e plan looks nice..my room is gonna be pretty spacious! lots of changes..bascially my whole room will change..floor, colours, furniture etc. my bro say there'll be space for him to play soccer coz the entire length for one half of e room is totally empty..wow..he ask me go erect goal-post for him..zzzz..haa...den..can buy bean bag chairs or sofa..or..TV? haa..cant wait..at 1st we tot it'll be ready by mid-jan..but tdy dad hopes that we can get it down b4 Christmas..wow..renovation will take abt 3 days..i think longer..n for that 3 days me n bro gotta camp in mum n dad's room..e only thing now tat i worry abt..is packing up all e stuff..it's ALOT of stuff in my room..OMG OMG..there goes my one week of free time b4 going to Vietnam..

lets see..next week dis time i'll be FREE and WORKING!! sat sun work, mon facial+see colour for furniture+work/kbox/outing..tues outing with harj..we'll be going to T3 n watch movie...wed..Dragonfly at night..day..dunno yet..Thurs Double O at night..day dunno yet..Friday..no plans..Saturday FLY to Vietnam..WEEEE....count down count down......... :)

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 8:07:00 PM

i'm so tired..i dunno y..

yst..went QH's house in the afternoon..didnt feel like taking e usual route..ended up taking a bus to sch den transferred an express bus 502..regret..got lost in some part of Jurong n e driver asked me to get down at e last stop..omg..so paiseh..had to walk all e way to Jurong Point where i bought lunch...

took nap..nowadays afternoon always feel so slpy..muz take nap..weird..was still considering whether to stay over at her house..decided tat if we were watching midnight movie we would..if we were not den i'll go home at 8.30pm..hmm..830 reached but QH asked me to stay..regardless of whether we were going to watch a movie..ok la..since i was a little lazy to travel home too..

hmm..we managed to persuade aunt to lend us e car..weee...midnight movie!! wanted to ask EMU along but she was feeling tired n her mum dont allow..awww..we wanted to watch at The Cathay but e carpark was full as usual..dis pple nvr plan for bigger carparks..zzz..big theatre but no parking..wth..cannot expect QH to hop to The Cathay right..so we decided to try PS instead..parked all e way to e top..more convenient..n we watched the 1230 show! weee..

Enchanted is such a nice movie..v funny..n so fairytale..coming to life..e crappiest part of all is the princess staying in e house n getting all e animals n insects to help clean up the house..e number of COCKROACHES!!! AHHHHH...QH n i were grossed out..e movie was worth e drive n the $9.50..at least it made me feel slightly de-stressed n i could go for a spin on e road..it was such a nice breather :)

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 3:17:00 PM

just finished watching e 1st episode of Hebe's new show..nice :)

emu came back yst! weee...so happy..went to e airport..haa..had lots of energy to expel..hyper hyper..hee..

went to study with Harj at ECP Macs thru e night..not bad..we managed to cover so so much! hee.. except e entire night someone was msging me..hiyah...........i dunno wat to say liao la..dis is getting out of hand..

spent e day at home tdy..dunno how i dozed off..anw, when i woke up i cant seem to put weight on my left leg...e heel will be v painful..weird....ouch....hobbled to KFC to study till 9pm den buy food n went home..harj nvr came :(

juz some thoughts went thru my mind tdy..no..there's ALOT ALOT that's on my mind..sigh..think 10 fingers also cannot finish stating what's on my mind..zzz...

i also dunno how la..juz let nature take it's course i guess..i juz cannot suffer anymore setbacks dis yr..i'm near bursting point already......

wish i could go somewhere where i could be void of all feeling..n its juz me n my books..i feel so suffocated!! :(

4 more days to exam..9 more days to end of exam..i cant wait!!!

this yr's Christmas lights at Orchard are beautiful..but dis yr..u're not around to walk down e streets n take pics of all e pretty Christmas trees n admire all the decorations of the shopping centres..we could have walked from the start..hand in hand..all e way to the Fountain of Wealth but it's now juz all a dream..i'm still living in e past which i cant seem to shake off..it comes n goes..i swear dis is torture..but there's nothing i can do abt..life still has to go on...

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 11:50:00 PM

Monday was pretty unproductive..morning went to sch for interview for a module..erm..it was ok..but still gotta do a 3 page report..hiyoh..

went home..yay..BOSS..i got all my bids..weee..$120 on 2 mods..WOW..

lunch with bro..wanted to study..but was feeling so sleepy..i went home n got 80mins of slp..zzz..den..i went to watch another movie..omg..Beowulf..it was a pretty nice movie..juz that e ending was left hanging..wanted to go home for dinner..BUT..e maid forgot..so..i went to meet Jac at PP n had fishy for dinner..yum....

was so tired..i slept b4 1am..

met harj tdy..we went Cineleisure..she had a meeting with KC at1230pm..dunno abt wat also..so scary..BUT..KC missed his bus stop..lol...

really feel sad for him..everyday Fish & Co. Fish & Co...until he doesnt even have time to go to town..hiyoh..town is like my 3rd home..my sch is there! i didnt go to say hi..coz felt like it was so inappropriate to be present..but he saw me..oh well..went to slack at BK..den..when Harj was done we took a bus to The Cathay coz she wanted to do her eyebrows..but..e lady on MC..so went sch to print her notes..den we went PP..

decided to sit at Starbucks..even after KC's nagging..hiyah..seriously, we dont owe fish & co a living..it's not a crime to be at pp even though we're not working.. 1stly..i stay there..2ndly u wanna cut labour cost..3rdly..it's a weekday..4thly..we have exams..the list goes on n on..zzzz...

bought flowers for mum..to give her later..beautiful :) Happy Birthday Mum..

dinner was nice..we had Ichiban Sushi @ PP..shared with mum..yum yum..

back to Starbucks..n it rained shortly..ARGH..stranded kids in pp..didnt wanna go into fishy..scared of KC..but in e end still went in..i felt weird..i dunno y..shldnt think so much..

heard some bad news from Shiela abt her fren..gosh..makes me feel that i must love all around me..n really not take them for granted..it's so sad... :(

David invited me to his wedding..BUT..i hav sch! anw, no intention on going..so weird! always felt that e friendship we shared is kinda weird..i always hope that there was no ulterior motive behind it..but..dont think too much! so long things remain this way..i'm comfortable ya?

EMU is coming back! counting down..17hrs..weee...K BOX HERE I COME!! haa...tsk tsk..10more days....

Family day 2007 @ Siloso Beach..17/11/07..

random pic..luv my shades :)

Flower balloon..i like.. :)

where we stayed..

watched dis in e evening..it was WOW!

Dinner with Amelia..her drink..cool right??

Some milo drink..not bad :)

our main course..grilled snapper..nice..

We had Ben's & Jerry's for dessert..yummy!

Harj tried squishing all her notes inside today..gosh..FAT FILE!!

ok..she decided to split them out..looks better..haa..

Flowers for mum :)

Us..looking retard..as usual..haa..at Ichiban Sushi..

Dad & Mum..loves.. :)

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 12:54:00 AM

2 fun days... =)

juz got home..wow..guess wat..i went to watch a midnight movie..Game Plan! :)

these 2 days were great!! i had lots of fun..but i didnt forget to study too k..

Saturday was spent at Sentosa..drove in..Mum's company's family day..wee..i wont say it was extremely fun but it was a nice getaway at the beach! the sun was great..the water was nice..there was breeze..n e DJ was so funny..kids are soooo cute..there was a hula-hoop competition..n a singing competition..a guessing-e-cartoon competition..it was great~! n it was so funny..we checked into Siloso Resort..new hotel..v v nice n clean..n we went for the luge! ZOOMING down at full speed with bro was SO COOL! wish i could go like 10times on that..haa..

ohh..my nail came out..eeeuuuww..cut cut cut..until left abit hanging at the end..still stuck..now there's a dead nail, an old soft nail, n a new nail! WOW...

next 2 hrs were spent studying at e restaurant of the cafe..which is by e beach..Siloso Resort is located just at the Siloso beach..they were having some LIME mag party..super noisy..i'll say e band cant sing..haha..

had dinner at Ami's..pasta pasta..4 diff types of pasta..ok..not bad..juz that their service is a big FAIL for a sentosa restaurant..well..thats not the pt..we were there for the Song of the Sea! the queue for tix was like soooo long..lucky we went to buy tix b4 we went for dinner if not no tix liao! ok..it was somewhat on a similar story line to the Musical Fountain but this was much more spectacular..it was worth $6..but only once! no more 2nd time~!

ooh..my cough turned into a flu..i was on a terrible sneezing frenzy..like 20sneezes in a row? gosh..bro wanted supper so we were like walking along looking for food at 11.30pm at night..e beach was still full of pple..n u know wat..7-11 is CLOSED..like on a Sat@Sentosa it's closed?? u know wat..7-11 shld juz not call themselves 24hrs n stop making us pay such freaking high prices..look how many outlets close at 10.30 or 10pm..all e mrts..SMU..even e Sentosa beach..HELLO................

had a great slp.. :)

mum woke us up at 830 for breakfast..i would say their breakfast was pretty gd..except the 'pao' was terrible..i luv their omelettes! n e chef's pretty cute..cute as in jovial n super friendly..haa..after breakfast we were off to main island..slacker me surfed e net for a hotel for e next few days..n played game till 1230..n...studied 10mins n i was off to slp for an hr..it was great :)

met Amelia in e evening to get my eyebrows done..everyone's saying it looks messy..kk..now it looks perfect..hee..oh yeah..n i know..i got my brows done, my face almost done..now it's my weight..mum juz had to remind me that i'm fatter now..yes yes..lose weight time..i'm like halfway to back to 2003..NOOOOO!!

back to evening..haa..we had dinner at some restaurant..forgot e name..e food was pretty gd..n we had a great talk! n we had Ben's & Jerrys..haa..i have a flu n a sore throat?

went back to PP..wanted to go Popular to get pen refills..lucky i didnt step into pp...some 'big' pple was around..phew..wanted to get Mum a bday gift..but..dunno wat to get :(

was abt to go home when i got a call..n i detoured to town to watch a movie..wee..Game Plan is a pretty humorous movie..but i still teared at the daughter-dad part..it was so touching...i had a great time..thanks :)

all geared up for the week after 2 fun days!! Harj, we can do this together ok?? :)

pics coming up soon.....

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 2:04:00 AM

周杰伦---彩虹 Jay Chou's Rainbow

哪里有彩虹告诉我能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静所有的云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡的着你的声音这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱当作我最后才明白

sad song..chorus music similar to The Secret's First Kiss.. :)

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 12:06:00 AM

grrr..is my blog so depressing? angel also thinks so..thats like..4 pple who think my blog is depressing..any more pple?

tdy had adventure..1st time exploring SMU carpark..interesting..i didnt know it was SO BIG until SESS..lol..i tot it was confined to the areas of SOB only..interesting..waited for XY to send me e file..i was like rushing to chapter 1 to buy a file..gosh..i was so underdressed n i was wearing glasses..think sway..chapter 1 was packed..the printing room was packed..n i was so blur i didnt know how to stuff the paper into the file..shoot..how dumb can i get..haa..

from sch..we took ECP-KPE-PIE..wee..KPE!! haa..silly rules..stuck to 60-65km/hr..cant risk getting a fine..not worth..for the first time..all e cars were really slow..unlike other expressways all overtaking one another..lol...bring bro to take CD from cousin n we bought lunch home..wanted to order pizza at 1st but they were too overwhelmed with orders that estimated time was 2hrs! gosh..

went Starbucks to study..got myself a new mug..hee.. *happy* i love starbucks Christmas times..nice mugs..nice drink..i LOVE Toffee Nut Latte!! pity i'm off coffee..if not i'll be into another venti size of that tdy again..haa..

was waiting to meet Angel for dinner..saw Emily n Ann..

we had foodcourt Specialty Duck Rice n Scoopz Ice-cream..den i walked Angel to e hawker centre to meet her mum..den..i went fishy..not supposed to go..but nvm la..angry den angry..not happy den not happy..its ok =)

slack slack..n i shld slp early..Sentosa tmr!! yippee..sounds so fun...e only thing is that.......i'm still sick.. :(

Bro n i acting retarded b4 we slp..haa..

At Macs with QH on Thurs..she took me n i glared..haa..

try drinking from 5 straws! tiring sia!!

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 11:40:00 PM

QH supposed to come my house to study tdy..but her arms r feeling tired..from all e walking yst..oh my..i suddenly feel demotivated to study..i hate exams..i hate studying..really.........

shld i go n work in dis sick condition of mine? :(

well, can considered i had a gd slp..didnt get that sucky feeling..but got awaken at 8am coz i really needed a toilet..lol..

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 10:13:00 AM

studied with QH the entire day..didnt go to sch for meeting..my throat is terrible..like totally gone..ouch..my voice was so so low..did a recording on Jay's song n i sound like my bro..haa..i could reach so so so low..ok..into my singing..i miss K BOX!! ahhhhh..the entire day was irritating QH on going K BOX..haa..cant wait for huimin to come back! my S.H.E. harmonising n duets..6 more days n she'll be back! but 15 days to end of exams..soon soon! :)

studied quite abit today..but felt slpy e entire time..last night didnt hav a gd slp either..that horrible feeling came back..i was half sitting half slping on my bed..feeling damn terrible..at 2am..gosh..i was so tired..n slpy..but..cant slp..n my throat hurt so bad..finally..i gave up and wanted to continue studying till e feeling disappeared..but guess wat..i stood up n i had this really huge burp..n i felt 100times better..den PEACEFUL SLP! wahaha..

no appetite e entire day..think near a fever..like feeling cold when QH was in shorts..crap..work full like hell also nvr fall sick..now crucial period lehz! zzzz..

accompanied Jac to post office to track ponty's prezzie..now we pray that it's really there..was telling QH how sweet she was.. :)

suddenly juz miss him..like really miss..to the point that i wanted to sms n juz find out how he was..wats wrong with me..QH will scold me for saying this..but i cant help it right..feelings can be controlled..but sometimes they do juz get out of hand huh? thats y i end up doing silly things (beancurd? lol)..

listening to stories..gosh..something so serious..scary..cant afford to let my results suffer this term!!

kkz..better go slp..another long day tmr........

---forgiveness does not mean a 2nd chance---

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 11:27:00 PM

another bad day..suffered from indigestion last night..i went toilet like so many times but nothing came out..it was a v v disturbed slp..like slp halfway den feel like throwing up..den run to toilet..dunno is really nothing or i just cant bring myself to throw up..think it's e change of diet that caused this..and probably signs of gastric with all that screwed up eating times AND..all the stress..sigh..went to sch feeling queasy..no choice..tdy muz hand up reports..n i left at break to go pp to see a doc..

got medicine..n did ECG for my chest pains..so scary..well..lucky nothing serious.. :)

these few days things are changing super fast..or maybe juz my mood swings r bad..all this stress is driving me mad..wats wrong with this sch..pple are like chionging for exams n u're asking us to bid for next terms courses already..

spent my day with QH.. :) had facial :)

though i had quite a fruitful n happy day i still feel quite down..n still alittle queasy..hope i can get a gd slp tonight..seriously i dunno how to put this..everything is running thru my head like me driving on the expressway.....sigh..still pondering on where i shld spend my study week...

think i'm falling sick..my throat feels terrible..gosh..wat a BAD timing..

argh..enuff of blogging..so many things i wanna say but cannot be said..zzzz....

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 12:23:00 AM

didnt go sch tdy..

went Purple Sage to get our grp's testimonial den i went SIM to study..really hard..i'm glad i finished my AMA..wee..

i actually went for Managerial Econs n YEN meeting with QH..lol..ok la..not that bad after all..feel beta as compared to last week..

results for trainer out tdy..as already expected..i didnt get..still felt a little little disappointed but it's not impt ya? e only thing is i'm pretty sad that i didnt get the news from PP..but from GH..i dunno whether i'm right to say that things are pretty inefficient at PP..but well, i have no idea when they wanna tell me..but..tats not impt too..

tdy QH asked me alot of mind provoking qns..yeah..those qns hav been pondering in my head..i always avoided them..but suddenly it juz got me wondering..not e right time..but at least i guess i have to face up to them sooner or later??

Bro n i acting retarded at Grandpa's hse on Sunday..

We both love cheese SOOO MUCH!! :)

Mash Potato at SIM..$1 n so much! *full*

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 12:39:00 AM

something interesting juz now..took 36..next stop dis lady got up..she looked so familiar..oooo..she is a regular customer! i waved hi..and she happily set beside me..n she asked 'u look familiar! do i know u from somewhere?' n i happily ans 'YES! Fish & Co.!' n we started talking like we were long-lost friends..it's amazing how pple juz click huh?

she sang praises of Fish & Co. n when i told her we had complaints she dont believe me..she said our service is v v gd as compared to other F&B outlets..yeah..i know..but wat a pity..PP customers are FREAKING demanding! wat they ask is nvr enuff..gosh..this pple.....

well, nice to talk to someone i see so often but nvr spoke a word more than 'hi! tuna salad, chips n red wine?' n she'll juz reply 'That's perfect!' :)

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 11:00:00 PM

just had a long talk with devin..well, nothing much to comment abt..juz that i'm glad that u've made a decision..somehow i'll say u're still alittle childish..but..simple things make u happy..juz like me..men (n women) do silly things all e time ya? =P

had class n had lunch with bro at Pastamania..we had fun..haa..the parmesan cheese..we finished like 3/4 the bottle? haha..cheese freaks..yum yum..

went GH make noise awhile..den went Hotel Intercontinental to meet CEO of Purple Sage..it was a great experience! i nvr knew it would be so interesting..we were pretty worried n stress at 1st..but things turned out fine..n...i think i got myself an internship! weee...

7.25pm..n i'm still in sch..too lazy to move home n get dinner..haa..no plans tonight...a 1st... =)

Quote to share: Love isn't something you find. Love is something that finds you. - Loretta Young

-=and thats so true =-

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 7:21:00 PM

-you'll only cherish someone only when you're abt to lose that person-

juz got this pharse from a show..it's so true..only when the person is seriously ill or hav some terminal illness den we'll realise all our mistakes/wrongdoings n cherish e person, esp ur loved ones....

after many weeks, i finally went to visit my Grandpa..i feel guilty..e last time i saw him was in July if i didnt remember wrongly..gosh..

drove tdy though dad not in sg..coz mum wanted to bring e extra MJ table to grandpa's house..lol..like that also can..but well, i finally touched e car again! weee..

went PP for lunch..n for supper..haa..still cant runaway from there..

MJ i lost money..but not alot la..won some BIG games..hee..

kinda lost touch with my family..nvr knew so many things have happened..sigh..

2 more weeks to exams..help...!!

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 12:03:00 AM

just saw KC come online..did i mentioned that i'm kinda over him already?

well, i guess that's gd news..knew we'll nvr work out anyway..haa..wats wrong with me..a post for him.....hope u dont read blogs.. :P

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 12:46:00 AM

a little high right now..juz had Choya..strong...

Thursday was pretty ok..not v busy..but pretty messy..well..1.5x pay..i shldnt complain..haa..had 3 deliveries..i went for all 3..the last one..was to a guy..whos pretty cute! initially KC was supposed to go..but he lazy take cab..weird..he wanted to walk..but it's damn out of the way la..so i volunteered to go..haa..lucky i went..CUTE GUY! lol..

My cousin, Deb n QH came to dine..long time nvr see Deb..she looks more 'girl' now..wow.. =)

oh..morning dad n i didnt talk..i felt so suffocated..all i wanted to do was get away from the house..n i juz felt like crying e entire way..dad came to meet me during break..was v touched..we had Ya Kun n juz chatted :)

Friday..was ok..spent the entire morning at home..afternoon went to study with Harj..we ended up at the airport..didnt know where else to go..haa..

was pretty stressed the entire night..trying to memorise my product description..well, luckily there's David for me to consult..didnt wanna ask KC....BUT..end up gotta ask KC on Sat morning..coz wanna know abt Grilled Seasonal Fish..haa...

the test was fine..was better than expected..theory paper was like any other verification test..Jac! u sure can score 100% de! :) Sufi went 1st for interview n i was 2nd..ok la..ask quite standard type of qns..all went smooth..glad it was over..

wanted to work at GH..coz they super lack of staff..apparently, they had NOONE for upstairs..wonder how they were going to survive e night..but..i nvr bring my stuff out..go home cannot come out le :(

ended up watching The Simpsons..and playing MJ..haa..no luck..lost lost lost.........

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 12:18:00 AM

When you have to look away, when you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you, I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak, or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you, I love you, endlessly
And when your mad cuz you lost a game, forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you, I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight, you can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you, when nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, the more I love, the more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you, whenI love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes, cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you, I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes, or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you, I love you, more than youll know
And when you forget that we had a date, or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight, you can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you, when nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,When I love you no matter what

This song is just so nice =) ---- 3/11/2007

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 12:21:00 AM

for e 1st time in a long time..i didnt bring my laptop to class..amazing..dunno wat got into me...i juz brought out my textbook n my notes to sch..wow..

met XY n we went sch together..wee..so fun to hav pple to go sch with..

class was ok..met Param after that to hav her proj interview..pretty fun..on global warming..i've LOTS to talk abt global warming..

met harj..went Orchard..wanted to do threading..but no slots..sad..eve of PH.......

n Orchard was packed..we waited freaking long for 36..stupid board cant be trusted..zzzz..

ended up taking 77 to Marina Square n taking a cab..e feeling of e cab was wow..haa..

we had Pastamania for dinner..2 pizzas..yum yum..

dad got Uncle to help me with my AMA..i really appreciate it..just that..his character is like dad..juz that he's more stubborn in certain aspects..u know..e conversation i'm having with him right now is causing more pains in my chest..it's unbearable..i dunno how to stop this..i really feel i can breakdown right now....

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 1:00:00 AM

done with my MPW reflections report..

i shld try to get some slp..

just chatted with Mathee..he thinks i'm cut out for this..

well, thats good..coz i really lack confidence in everything now..

some words juz mean alot when u're down..

come on girl..u know u can do it..

it's the final lap..

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 3:07:00 AM

now for the not so happy stuff..

facing expulsion is not e best news anyone can get..anyway..my AMA is like so dead..talked to mum n dad last night..dad's trying to help me..i really appreciate it..but..i've a feeling it's not gonna help much..yeah i know thats a super pessimistic thought..but..somehow i know things r not gonna turn out right..

for the umpteen time..i'll say that 2007 has been a really bad yr..seriously, i think God has put me to a BIG BIG test to test me in my 1st yr of adulthood..n i swear this sucks..it's seriously one after another..i've never felt dis way b4..i'm so suffocated i just wanna run away..from everything..n everyone..i only wanna face those i can trust..whom i know i can confide in..who can give me advice..n who i know i can rely..which rounds down to just a few..where i can count with one hand..

back abt SIM..e pple r still e same..but..e way i approach them is 10times different from how i did in April..i felt tat all tat i've been through this 6months have changed me too much..that somehow..i dont understand why i react this way..on 1 hand u can say i've matured..yet on e other hand..u can say tat i've totally lost control of myself..i've been trying really hard to pick myself up from all e falls..n i'll gladly say tat i've succeeded..

dis is e 1st time i feel tat i really wanna run away..to a place where noone knows where i am..except for e few tat i mentioned earlier on..i juz wanna cut off from this n juz look at my notes n books..no more work..no more school..no more love..no more feelings..juz me n my books..gosh..NERD?

i've already slept 3 days away..i dont wanna give up..e fighting half of me is stronger..n i know tat all i need is some discipline n determination to carry on fighting..i've already fought for 3 weeks..wat more another 3?

i really dont wanna breakdown......as i type..i feel that tightness in my chest once more..tat familiar suffocate-ness is back again..i hope someone will juz give me e strength to pull through till december 2nd..and den i can let it all go..........

i've more to say..but..i'm just so tired and sad..next time...perhaps.....

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 12:48:00 AM

let's talk abt happy things first..

tdy..met harj..we went NUS to hand up her homework..damn fast..coz she didnt wanna meet any1 she knew..haa..oh yeah..met a fren at the stairway..i said hi..n the guy went "which fac...." b4 he finished he qns..i said "i'm not from NUS.." oops..haha..

we were at e bus stop waiting for bus to go NUS n there was this meow meow stranded on the landing on the 2nd floor..n e guy in e house was trying to get e meow meow in..think e cat belongs to him..anw..damn funny..he open e window n using a bamboo pole trying to get e cat to come to him..den he took a chair out n indicated to e cat to jump on it to jump in..GOSH..n he actually decided to climb out..n e bus came..i wonder wat happened to e meow meow..haa..

next both of us went SIM..go fetch qh..coz she was gonna take taxi..aiyo..so inconvenient..

whilst waiting for her..we walked around..had drinks..prata sausage..den she was done..met a TK classmate..lol..do i look so diff?

qh had YEN meeting..met up with those guys tat i knew in April..lol..they're still e same..looking back at myself..it's been only 6 months since i last saw them..but i felt tat i already changed so much..it's a really different me looking at them..hmmm..

we slacked at e Student Lounge..it was freezing cold..n i was abit paiseh to take out my SMU sweater..haa..but i still wore it..coz..i couldnt stand e cold any further..lol..

had dinner at PP..n qh n i slacked at macs..yeah..i told her how i was feeling..but not everything..well..happy things first..sad things come later ya?? :)

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 11:59:00 PM

Sunday was fine..went to sch for AIS meeting..yay..finally we're done..by 3pm i was on my way to pp..i was feeling damn weak..dunno y..i juz wanted to slp slp slp..

ate pasar malam food for dinner..didnt feel like having staff meal..did bar at night..didnt wanna talk to customers..guess wat..i jammed..thanks to boss's wife calling me for her fren..say 2 pple 2 pple..but turned out to be 3 pple..make me find..den all e cash n credit..i was so so pissed with her..everything call me..hey..y everytime i work u love calling my name..at tat pt..i was so angry tat i told myself if she were to call my name ONE MORE TIME..i was gonna flare up..

was so tired..tried to edit as much as possible for ethics n was dead in my bed by 1am..

today...i overslept..y..coz i forgot to set my alarm clock! gosh..lucky i wanted to go to class..coz there was a quiz! my my..

oh..u know what..prof didnt allow e guy to submit individual work..n we juz added his part in..omg..wth..

met David for lunch..we had Italian opp my sch..e food was GOOD..yum yum..didnt take pics though..he paid for lunch..n we went The Cathay to slack..n guess what..we had Ben & Jerry's!yummy...

met Cat!! wee..miss her lots..we watched Stardust..nice nice movie..pretty hilarious as well..haha..i think i laughed the loudest! =P

next we went Suntec n chiong e Arcade..wow..it's been a long long time since i played e arcade..so fun so fun! by e time we left our hands n legs were aching terribly n we were feeling like jelly..haha..

u know what? today there was double chocolate at Donut Factory! i just couldnt resist and bought a box of 6..YAY!!

Sakae Sushi for dinner..tried raw swordfish today..pretty nice actually..didnt taste at all raw..n no fishy smell like our fried swordfish! yummy....

miss her lots..cant wait for our next outing! =)

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 11:11:00 PM

u know what..i actually managed to do it..i dunno how..

just finish AIS meeting..done with our report..MPW report was done on Friday..submit to Christina..Income Tax left compilation..Ethics i'm compiling..when i'm done..i must really start n finish my AMA n my mpw reflection report..and i can get EVERYTHING out of e way n start my intensive studying..this term is hell..gosh..i'm like so slpy now..

yst's tax meeting was fine..we just went ahead pretending nothing happened..n we also diversified..talking abt GLR..haa..crap..

worked at night..it was superly busy coz of PP's crazy sales..everything muz be going damn cheap..long queues everywhere..gosh..we were having Big Fish drinks @ $3.90 if u ordered 2 main courses, n pple took it like it were free..madness..almost every order i took was a Big Fish..n i really pity Jac..coz she was the Bartender for e night..can 'see' her cursing n swearing..we only had 1 blender n 7 Big Fish mugs! i was greeter for the night..n e crowd nvr stopped..gosh..can i faint..e list was nvr ending..n pple actually wait for their seats..i expected half to walk off..but i guess inside muz be even worse..at least we're located outside huh?

e only thing i managed to get from e sales was $2 ice-creams from Scoopz..yummy...

guess wat..i talked on e phone for 80mins..gosh..how come we hav so many things to talk abt when we barely know each other?

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 2:15:00 PM

Things couldnt get any worse

things couldnt get any worse..i juz got an email from my grp mate..he wanna back out n do e proj individually..ok..so wat exactly happened? i didnt go for meeting on Wednesday..something bad muz hav taken place..

i dunno..i juz feel like a total mess..i suddenly feel like i lack self confidence..i juz feel out of place..wonder why i would feel this way..maybe things hav juz changed so much..too many things have happened over this yr tat has led to this change..no idea when it happened or why it happened..it is juz all guesses..think only one person would know how i feel..but i hafnt got an opportunity to tell her..we're all so busy with our own programmes.

not looking forward to go to sch later..neither was i looking forward to work..how come? juz suddenly dont wanna face all of them..i seriously have too many things to do..tat i hav no idea where to start....

can someone tell me whats wrong with me..i'm like painting a smile on e streets when i'm so stressed out n worried that i've been experiencing tightness in my chest..hope it's not something serious that'll lead to a heart attack or what..coz its pretty scary..

i got more to say but..no point la..anw, nitto finish my report..

gosh..i really cant wait for exams to end..i'm so so so tired..

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 11:58:00 AM

CC is back!

just reached home..had a midnight movie with CC, Alvin, CX and QH! wee..

today a v eventful day..met XY on 16 n we headed for suntec together..went to get the chocs for Purple Sage n ST Engineering n we had Sakae for lunch..ate a little..not hungry..den went to buy donuts..oh yeah..did i mention i supposed to be on a strict diet for my complexion? no oily stuff, no caffine, only light stuff..in chinese its called 清淡..like fish soup..gosh..i'll die.haha..no la..coz she say things like my hormones n inherited n stress (leading to lack of slp) kinda cannot be controlled..den this factors add on to it..so shld try to control lor..

went sch for AIS meeting with prof..v short n sweet..den waited for XY..she went Purple Sage..n apparently their meeting was pretty long..n guess wat..i boarded the wrong bus--the one tat doesnt go to town..shit..had to get down n run to the next one..i reached Starhub centre panting..

CEO of ST Enginnering was v v nice..he really had alot of things to tell us..if only we approached him before our presentation..prob things would hav been beta..our 45mins meeting became 90 mins..wow..

had dinner at Jack's Place..when we saw cc..QH n i started laffing..i was laffing into my menu..he really looks so U-G-L-Y..actually after getting used to it ok liao la..he's still 100% the same..no change..haa..miss e crap coming from Alvin, CX n him..suddenly miss the old me..where did it go to?

my main course at Jack's

we slacked at Starbucks n suddenly, they had an idea.lets go watch Saw 4! gosh..not my type of movie..but i was so tempted..no idea why..i'm not tat type for this kind of grusome movie + it's 9.50 today..but i went..CC drove..damn ridiculous..think he stalled like 3 times along e way to town..

he didnt know how to go so we had to guide..n we missed turnings..haa..n we got stuck in The Cathay carpark..there were no seats for 12.05 movie..n everyone decided to leave..lucky some nice soul gave way to us..n we went to PS..1.45movie..e movie was ok la..not as grusome as expected..but i was making noise throughout..haa..whats new?

movie finish at abt 330..n we went tamp 1st..send Alvin n CX..n guess wat..road block..n..our car was e only one stopped..wth..ask for our i/c..den check so long..dunno wat e hell they do also..nvr take breather test..no idea sia..take so long..they stopped many bikes..but apprently they only chose our car..WEIRD..1st time i kena like this lehz..nvm la..we stand outside crap crap laff laff..den finally they let us go.....

31/10/07 Eric n I at glassy..lol..

1/q1/07 Jac's half spring chicken @ NYNY..

1/11/07 my fav steambun!! :)

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 4:38:00 AM

juz gonna be a short post n i'm off to slp..

went facial at 11am..was almost late..today's facial actually took 3hrs! n till now i still look like a tomato..gosh..she did full extraction..n it was damn pain..until i felt like going to e toilet..i really hope it makes my complexion beta..if not..it's such a waste of my parent's $ n my time..coz i really look in a bad state..

didnt go meeting..went to HQ to give Jac support for verification..oh yeah..did i mention? HQ has moved to Pacific Tech Centre..how much coincidence can this be..den everytime i go warehouse i'll surely run into HQ pple..gosh..today met Calvin & Ann..n Calvin juz had to tell me that i'm fatter..*faints* okok..everyone..i know i'm putting on alot of weight..i nitto start losing already..

we went AMK Hub..looks v nice n big! last time i went there was with KC & Harj to take stuff..still rmb it was barely open..n we walked super far to the bus interchange coz we couldnt find it..haha..n we took a pic of him slping..haha..those were e days.. miss them... :(

we had NYNY for dinner..or high tea..it was at 5pm..haa..anyway, their service suck big time..e manager was doing all e work..n the staff were happily laffing away..if i work there..i surely give them a earful..food standard..FAIL..my beef was COLD..n harj's hotdog bun was like fried with a layer of oil..n Jac's chicken was juz warm..we actually left them a feedback on e back of e receipt..hopefully they'll take it seriously..

slacked at fishy..wats new..n we actually bought cards to play..we were so bored n we didnt know wat to do..coz they were going Double O n waiting for Sufi..fun fun :)

met Mr Yeo at basement...he...looks fatter.....haa..

bad news..i'm in a more dilema now..AIS meeting at 2.30pm, purple Sage at 3pm..hav to choose AIS..coz purple sage is considered smaller matter..den..interview ST Engineering at 4pm..den AIS gotta put on hold..den gotta come back n rush..den meet QH at 645pm..there goes my Friday..GOSH..

n..Saturday..Tax meeting at 3pm..Sunday AIS meeting at 2pm..both r due on Monday..how can i forget??? n u know wat..i realised i hav schedule for both days..i dunno how i'm gonna tell KC or Maricel this BAD BAD BAD news..i feel so horrible, coz i volunteered to work..i feel so torn..how i wish i can split into 3..oh man..someone..pls save me from this misery.........i wish i could juz concentrate on studying for finals right now..i really hate dis feeling..ohh..plus BOSS starts on Monday..wth..pple trying to finish one term n we're planning for e next already..y cant they leave us in PEACE..stupid system....i juz wish..n wish...n wish...................

juz did 40 sit-ups n i'm feeling so tired..how unfit i've become....zzz...

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 12:49:00 AM

Yst's MPW presentation was fine..we lacked fluff..the first grp was so fluffy..they had a script and movie..ours was juz plain words..well, but i think ours had more contents than theirs..haha..

after school i finished my MPW report..yay! one down..

den it was to Glassy! with 4 darlings - harj, jac, tiff, sufi! weee..did tarot reading..the outcome..was something that i didnt hope it would be..dont wanna talk abt it..it made me sad..

we had quite an enjoyable dinner except for e fact that there was almost no service..pretty busy night..nvm la..but we still had fun amongst ourselves :)

wanted to go Esplanade to walk..but Jac was juz informed she's going for Verification tdy! wee..so we went pp so that she could study for verification..

lazy to do anything at night..played games..n guess wat..i actually talked to David for nearly 80mins on the phone..omg............

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 9:40:00 AM