-the colours of my life-

it supposed to be a fun day tdy..woke up early to go facial at Leonard Drake..it was shiok..i shld really pamper myself once in a while yeah..anyway, got a package..so looks like it's a pamper every 3 weeks or so :P

bought 2 new shoes..n i juz took our my papillios n wore my new shoes..it's white! me n my loving white accessories..hee...

went wheelock..bro wanted to get Crumpler bag..saw the sign which says Apple 10% discount..but e card was green!! oh no..the card i borrowed is some EpiCentre card..luckily when we were paying i juz asked if could get discount n e girl checked n can get discount! happy happy..

Next stop Big Os..haha..even mum couldnt resist buying e 2 cakes..NICE RIGHT? hehe..my fav cake.. =) guess wat..mum bought us an ipod nano..gosh..so sweet of her..i so love it! actually i always like harj's n KC's ipod..wanted 2 get that but it was extinct already..this one juz released 2 weeks..WOW..and got discount with UOB card! well, new stuff comes with terms n conditions..actually it's not tat hard to meet e 'terms n conditions'..i juz nitto set my priorities right....... n i got an ipod card!POWER..it's gonna be my baby :)

saw mummy lily working so i went to find her in e off..i really miss working with her too..n those days where we hung out with her, deb, melissa n yun..those were fun times ya..silly her forgot that i broke up with steven liao..n she juz had to mention he was gonna come back like really soon..it's really really soon..i tot i could run away from this till jan or april or whenever he's gonna come sg..it suddenly hit me real hard..n i started crying..i'm really scared..i dunno wat to do..

i realised..that if tats e case..my plan may fail..gosh..i got e green light n tot it was gonna be a smooth process..now..i've really no idea..

tdy is super busy..e queue was horrendous..i really dunno wat to say..lucky e pple started to queue in a straight line n it was easy for me to sort them out..well, at least it'll help to boost some sales..sales has been really bad..

i'm glad tat things have kinda return to normal..though i still wanna know e reason..but i shall not ask..i'm really too tired to go bother abt everything..i shld learn how to put things down, face them, n not brood over them..bernard is really right..they'll haunt u unknowingly..n it really does..

QH, juz wanna say i really miss u right now.. :(

well, a happy entry with sad turns..sigh..

one of my used-to-be fav song by Tank from the popular Taiwan drama Hana Kimi =)

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a long day tdy again.supposed to get up early to repair dad's car..but i overslept =(

guess it's coz i'm juz tired..last night i actually talked to KC n cried..i dunno y..i juz had to find someone to listen to all e burden in my heart..n i juz tot of KC..saw him online n den started pouring everything out..dont think he really read..but it's ok..at least i let it go huh..

waited 4 QH to call me..but she couldnt wake up..so went fishy at 1pm to return e ice box n went back T2 to return my pass..went pp to get emu's dvd..den went home..didnt wanna sit in or around fishy..

dinner was pretty busy..but i still felt bored..it's juz not e same anymore..plus..i seem to be getting e cold shoulder..was it something i said in e evening?tot i was thinking too much but it was a fact..i was upset, but i seriously didnt know how to handle this..all i wanted to do was juz run away..but well, if this affects..den i think our friendship is def on thin ice..so now wat?

deb can be pretty sweet at times =) although she bullies n bites me most of e time.but i totally agree tat i really do miss her..miss e times at fishy..even though how busy..she still has e time to shoot me..n make me laff..yeah..hey..memories really do fly back to my mind making me smile.....n cry to think tat so much has changed over 1 yr tat she has left..lets see..her last day was a sat 7Oct..gosh...

Taken a few days after she left......and e day after she left..

i really miss this stupid irritating dino.. =(

tdy i have finally decided tat i shld enforce my plan..it's time to change..i'm really v v tired..but i dont forsee how i can put down everything n rest..i cant..tats y it's time to change so tat i can still do everything n not be so tired..it's gonna be sad n i know i'll regret..but i guess it's all for e beta..
i've suffered enuff setbacks for 2007..tdy while tearing up my pile of letters accumulated from i dunno when..i saw e letter from e sch..n i panicked..well..i didnt really read it well e 1st time..n tdy i did n i realised i'm actually in deep shit..gosh..

--if only i could replay 2007 once more..... --

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fishy BBQ yst..seriously, i've nvr seen anything so messy in my entire life..so much for trying to push everyone to move..but..it seems like only harj n i were moving..men nowadays r so un-gentlemanly..gosh..ok..maybe KC was sweet at certain times..but sometimes he also no innitiative..anyway, i was damn pissed off with e most snr one..

borrowed dad's car..drove harj n KC to giant..wanted to get more charcoal, firestarter n some beer..when we got back 2 e car..i was utterly shocked..there was this HUGE scratch on e car..OMG..n it's pretty bad..well, thank goodness it's not a dent..but..it hit me pretty hard..i was so scared n afriad..

i'll hate red cars from tdy on..

e entire BBQ was pretty smooth..no idea y i got teased too..hey..i'm always e innocent unaware party being bullied..UNFAIR..besides that..all was fine la..

woke up tdy..n my contact lenses went down e sink..omg..how suay can i get..did opening..replaced sufi..lunch was boring..zzz..went T2 to take parmesan cheese..went in to see if there was Harj's perfume..slacked with jac..got my car stuff and contact lenses..

dad came home super late..silly boss n his meeting..sigh..didnt manage to go airport tonight =(

--i really dunno wat i wan--

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At ethics lesson:
knowing the right answer is like pornography..u know it when u see it..
haha..dunno wat has ethics got to do with pornography..but well, i guess it's abt transparency..

and my prof's dad taught him how to copy during exams??lol..
dunno how true that is..

do not do unto others wat u do not want others to do unto u..
this is a saying that we always say from young..but somehow..i nvr believed in it..though i believe in retribution..but sometimes things juz dont work that way..

Tuesdays are long days..nvr liked AMA..i feel that it's a waste of my time..Ethics lessons seem to be getting more interesting..is it the prof doesnt know wat he's doing or is he juz being too professional?

AIS lessons r pretty interesting too..i like..always looking forward to 6.45pm..hehe..

went home for dinner..and borrowed dad's car to NTUC..yeah..it's juz PP but i had LOTS of things to buy..tot i would have to bring them home coz fishy has no place to put..but in e end KC asked me leave everything there..so ok la..haha..

i guess i got everything for the bbq tmr..i shld stop worrying..

i do silly things at times..tdy is not exception..but i guess.......tat makes my day and my life more interesting *winks*

---i know i dont stand any chance.i shld juz stop trying---

this song is once my fav =)

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 1:09:00 AM

nitto start saving money..realised my expenses this 3 weeks were SKY HIGH..wat i spent on..i seriously nvr noticed..gosh..

pretty worried for fishy BBQ..dunno y..is it because everything seems so unconfirmed? i realised that i shldnt have opened my mouth to suggest a BBQ..when did i become e organiser? e 2 pple who were initially enthu with the BBQ are so difficult to communicate with..hello..i cant do everything alone u know..i really thank Harj for helping me out with this..without ur help i think i cant pull through tmr..u know girl..i know u will say it's my fault for putting myself into this mess..to tell u e truth..i kinda regret now, but it's too late to turn back..all i pray now is that tmr will be a smooth day thats all =)

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Qh's bday on Fri..i took a 2hr+ bus ride to Jurong Point to catch e 11.25am No Reservations...quite a nice movie..

walk walk around Jurong Point..they have lots of cute cute stuff..gosh..if i had e money i would hav ended up getting alot of stuff!! haha.. got Jay Chou's Secret Movie DVD and e soundtrack..yipee!! happy happy..

bought Giodarno tops..on offer..supposed to control my expense..but well..i couldnt resist..haha..

had Bento Box for lunch.food not bad..except that they have no service = no ice water + xpensive drinks..

cute piggy =P me and e bday girl!=)

mine...and yours...yum yum..

walk walk awhile b4 we split ways at 4pm..she need to get home to take stuff to go SP to play badminton..n i was to go town to get a Fox skirt i saw at JP, get cake n we meet at 10 to cut cake..

took a bus to town..slept e entire ride :) Suntec had my skirt..but 38 was juz fitting..ended up walking to Marina Square to get the 40..weird..y these shops have 1 size but dont hav e other? make life difficult..happy i got my skirt..15% discount! was on my way to Wheelock to get cake when QH called to say she sprained her leg or something..ouch..rush rush to Big O n took a cab to Bedok Reservoir..

e wait was long..and when we got in we were out in less than 2mins..e guy said her tendon was broken n e only way was to sew it back.. *faints* dad sent us to her house n she was off to SGH..

i went fishy..but got pissed off..n left to SGH..

A&E wasnt v fast..their system was weird..but well..QH could still laff n joke..so i guess it shld be alright ya? her leg in a cast!

tdy supposed to go for training..but well..SUAY..cant find my badminton shoes..zz..fated ah..i was so on to go training lor..wats this..

end up go PP to settle my contact lenses..i still think Acuvue is e best..no problem at all!

decide to go cycling..called HF..yay..got pple go cycling with me..den..now..cant find my Nike shoes..wth..2 pairs of shoes go missing..dig out e cupboards for e 2nd time..dots..ended up wearing my nice white Adidas..do i have a choice?

e cycle was GREAT! i nvr felt so relaxed..it really made me put everything down juz to enjoy e breeze n e scenary..e sun was hot..but it felt gd on my skin..had totally no regrets even though i got a sunburn..we even had some Satay at Lagoon hawker centre! yum... :P

Cable skiing..cool..

Nice scenary you can catch @ East Coast Park..wow..

Picture shoot....plus our Satay "teabreak"..haha..

i look like a professional sports woman!!

got a new pair of badz shoes..hee..i shall train hard now..

our optician gave us this..wee..Bausch and Lomb!!

Went to Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel to have dinner buffet..e food was sooooooo WOW..nice presentation..exotic food..n for once..i ate sashimi..LOTS of sashimi..hmm..hope i dont get a rash tmr..full shift lehz! i ate quite alot..but well..shall start dieting tmr..haha..dont waste e opportunity to get nice food..

Real ice sculpture..cool.. & prawn cocktail..

Mini pork skin burger..and rice dessert..

Chocolate Fondue!! wow..Vanilla Strawberry Moose and my own ice-cream creation..

e bday cake :)

but well, their service sucked big time..their feedback form..mum wrote a mini complain..lets not talk abt it..

A Ferarri! for a wedding car?? cool..

visited QH in hospital..she did her op at 5pm..she called me around 8+..she's fine..juz that weak from anaesthetic..gotta be in cast for 1 n half mnth..n will take abt 6mnths to heal..muz go for physiotherapy..no sports for at least a yr..wow..one injury can really cause SO MUCH! Take care girl..i love u..

Quote for the day: It's easy to fall in love. The hard part is finding someone to catch you. - Bertrand Russell

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Made round 2 of mooncakes..it seemed better..but..it still felt like ang gu kway..haha..went to emu's house to give her mum..she was happy to see me..but she said i put on weight..i know i know..also went to cc's mum to give her mooncakes..she too was v happy..i feel happy making their day..as e saying goes..it's better to give than to receive =)

worked only 6-9pm..KC wanted to cut labour cost..fine with me..i'm flexible..

today is juz one of those days i get terrible mood swings..maybe bernard is right..i'm being haunted by those 'mind demons' n i juz nitto let go of those things tat r not impt..prob my life would be beta off..my mind n body r seriously not in one piece..zzz

A quote I got from facebook..sweet =)
If I could give you one gift, I would give you the ability to see yourself as I see you, so you could see how truly special you are. - Unknown Author

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School..den Party World..and den dinner @ Fisherman's Wharf..thats how my day passed..with XY..Harj joined halfway thru Party World n QH at dinner..fun fun..

At Party World..

Fisherman's Wharf Fish & Chips..

will prefer Fishy's but for this price..it's fine =)

slacked with QH at Macs..as usual =)

Relationships are a headache..seriously..

both parties muz be willing to sacrifice..of course one is more giving..e other more taking..but there is a limit to where dis will continue..

talk abt me..of coz having a half makes lots of difference in ur life..but it's not any guy on e street tat will fill up that space..at dis pt in time i've no confidence in starting another one..i juz wanna enjoy my life..n concentrate on wat is most impt..

e 1 tat i loved has moved on..into a totally new stage of life..i've already understood tat i stand no place in tat picture..watever has passed has passed..memories r all tats left..i cant bear 2 throw e things tat reminds me of u..it'll juz be a happy memory..4 now..i juz hope to nvr see u again..at least not till e end of dis yr..

e 1 tat i like..though some part of me carry hopes..but it'll be another complicated one.. *shake head* i've enuff of complicated stuff..QH will murder me anw..haha..juz a few words would make my day..n tats sufficient..i dont ask 4 more..as 4 now..i'm contented so long as u dont avoid me..time will make it go..juz dont disappoint me ya? i believe in ur ability to withstand all barriers n stress tat comes ur way :)

---Simple things make me happy =)---

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Tdy tried to make mooncake..actually it wasnt a failure..juz that e receipe was wrong..instead of 150ml of oil..i was given 150g of oil..FAINTS..the taste was fine..the shape quite nice..juz that it looks so glossy n oily..gross..cant wait to try out another batch..but i guess harj n i had fun..hee..

KC brand of mushrooms?? haha..

Swensons...

The b4..n the after =)

yst went to cut my hair..now it's super short..nvm..e weather so super hot..better too..harj n i highlight our hair too..but it looks more like colouring..haha..light colour!! nice n cheap.only $5 a person.. =)

bernard wanted to go drinking at night.not too keen on drinking but juz wanted to go somewhere to slack..so..ended up was bernard, kc, cel, janice and me! had fun..but pretty tiring coz wore contacts e entire day..act it was fine.juz tat janice wanted to match-make me..haha..darling..it's impossible between us ok? i'm not hoping anymore..

dunno wat i'm so stressed abt..went K Box tdy..n i practically sang my heart out..i feel as if i'm crying inside..sigh...

Famous Ah Liang Hokkien Mee! yum..

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Something meaningful i found on Ms Chuan's blog =)

Dance,as though no one is watching you

Love,as though you have never been hurt before

Sing,as though no one can hear you

Live ,as though heaven is on earth

in my opinion, it's a receipe to freedom of life..

Just feel motivated to work this 2 days. no idea why. volunteered to help Shiela sweep e floor on Sat night. yst. swept n mopped Jac's bar. dunno wat got into me.

Thick toast with floss! From Central @ PP..super nice!

From Harj.. =)

Yst we also had home deliveries n i volunteered to send both. didnt know abt the $1 incentive. i seriously juz sent it coz i tot it was something new n interesting. yeah it was. no service needed. but i juz had dis feeling tat e ppl looked surprised seeing a girl at e door..haha..

after talking to KC last night. i feel better understanding some things. although most i already know but i juz felt better. thank you KC.

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A joke to share with everyone abt e conversation i had with a new staff:

I walked into the restaurant carrying one carton of Sambal Sos
Him: Hi, table for how many?

Me: Do i look like I'm here to eat?

Ok..my fault..i was rude..but it was freaking heavy and i just wanted to put it down..

Outside at the table

Me: just now sorry i was rude..but it was heavy..

Him: wat did u bring here?

Me: Sambal sos from T2

Him: you work at T2 and here?

Me: ya..but not at fish n co. another job.

Him: Oh? u sell Sambal Sos at T2??

OMG...harj, sufi and i were like..............................peels of laughter...

work today at T2 was pretty ok..boring at certain times..but much much more things to do than at T1..slacked alot..picked dad at his gate..plane supposed to arrive at 11.25..but waited until abt 11.45 b4 the plane came in..

Morning sunrise with the airplanes =)

So so many rubber bands!

Phoebe drew this..nice =)

Waiting for dad at his gate..

Coffee Bean's Chinese Chicken Salad (no eggs actually..)..

Fishy at night was fine..jammed greeter station coz there was absolutely no seats..thanks to a table for 20..they were pretty irritating..

i did e loudest bday rap ever..i was so stressed..that i juz wanted to release it all.....

--i still think abt u even i keep telling myself not to =(---

This is a song by Gary 曹格 - 世界唯一的你 (The only you in this world)

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Recuperated my slp today! happy happy..hee..

bought monthly contact lenses too..yay..Bausch & Lomb..it's much cheaper than Acuvue..and guess wat? i got a free S.H.E. case too! so nice =P

My S.H.E. case!!! :P

Work was pretty boring.not busy at all.sales is bad..labour cost is high..hmm..and e managers lately r...juz weird..maybe 1 day shld talk to them abt it..

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