-the colours of my life-

The Emptines in my heart... =(

working on thurs night was hell..i seriously couldnt feel anymore worse than sleepy..

the past few days were all full full..from Friday all the way to this Wednesday it's 10am-11pm and 12pm-11pm on Thurs..Friday will be OFF..i dont care if it's a sch holiday, a Friday or there's not enuff staff..i seriously think by den i'll be half-dead already..today is already the 4th day but i'm still doing well =)

lately my heart has begun to flutter..to someone at fishy..hmm..no idea y...weird..it's like juz 1month and 1 day since that day....

well..i knew this fluttering is dumb..it's a definite no-no between us..come on..differences are so many..yeah..can be overcome-d..but..i knew i'll regret..like how i regret this previous relationship.. =(

decided to juz share a little with jac today..kinda regret..not because harj and her has been bugging..but i knew that this was juz some stupid phrase i was going through..that some part of me is juz empty..and juz wanna fill that empty space by turning my attention to someone else..so unfair to that person huh..

today last min decided to go to TM to take grenadine for pp..ran out of that..and we have been using red dye for Pink Passion..cheater..haha..

anyway, the ride to TM was fine..the bus had TV mobile so was pretty distracted...forgot that my mp3 player had no batt.. =( after taking the grenadine decided to take a cab coz i was too lazy to walk back to the bus interchange..ok..things started to turn wrong..the radio was playing all the emo songs..and..my mind went back to u..it's all u..u and u and u and u..seriously..it's a torture..i thought..the nights of crying had ended..i finally got my mind off u since genting..

i knew the fluttering in my heart will nvr be able to cover the emptiness u had left..probably next time..but not at this moment..not today..not in the next week..i finally understood the meaning of emptiness..the pain that i felt that pierced through my heart..the scars that u left..the tears that i weep..

i'm glad u like the bear..i'm happy that u called..although it sparked off a wave of tears..but i was glad the call came when i was on the way to storeroom with harj, not at fishy, not with anyone else..whatever u wanted to explain to me..one part of me wanna hear..the other i wish not to hear..coz..i dunno whehter i'll be happy or sad..i dont wan a part of me to go soft and wanna take u back.......................zzzzzzz this sucks..

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 12:35:00 AM