-the colours of my life-

i thank all my lovely friends for being there for me this period..
without all of u..i think i wouldn't be as strong as i am now..
after many days of misery..i plucked up my courage and did a long distance call..
it was nice hearing ur voice after such a long time..
i appreciate ur explanation..
initially i blamed HIM for sending u over..but actually.. i only hav myself to blame..
i nvr wanted to work in the service industry in the first place..
if i didnt dine there on 31/12/04, i would hav nvr start working there..
if i had not been flower hearted, i wouldnt have agreed to go out with u..
if i had taken all their advices, we wouldnt have started..
but..without started out at the service industry, i wouldnt have met gd frens like cat, harj, deb, etc..

2007 has been a sucky yr..wonder wat i did wrong last yr to deserve all this mess..from u left, to my bday, to my F grade, to that webhosting, to that fake HK company, to the big "fight" i had with my best fren, to u leaving me..i swear..this is the last straw..i dont think i can handle any more setbacks this yr..i'll juz fall into ultimate depression..

i guess i'll nvr see u ever again..ur future is there, mine..is probably here..
all the promises that u made to me..i know they'll juz disappear with time..
all i wanted to do with u the next time u come back..it'll juz be a dream..
all i hope is juz for a miracle to change this fact..but i know i'll nvr return to ur side..
all i wish is for u to be happy..and remember me in ur heart always..

i love you.

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 9:03:00 AM