-the colours of my life-

suddenly, i realised..that friends do play an impt part of ur life..
suddenly, i realised..that without friends..i'll be very lonely..
suddenly, i realised..that it has been 3 yrs since i lost my first relationship..

juz an entry with my thoughts..prob watched too much tokyo juliet today..the last few discs were so touching..couldnt stop crying..prob it brought back some memories..prob juz triggered something in my mind that has been supressed inside all this years..whichever..it spurred me to think..reflect on wat i've done over these years..on how i've grown and matured and leart from 2 relationships..

whilst playing badminton today with qihui..i juz suddenly thought of quitting fishy..i juz suddenly felt that that environment will screw up my life..i dunno y..everything juz happen so sudden..i felt so lost and juz started talking to qihui during rest time..

qihui's comments did make sense..yeah..i'm so indecisive..fickle minded..hav been talking abt quitting for the past yr..but that place is just so fun at times!! how can i juz quit like that..i'm sure i can nvr find a place thats like fishy.. =)

i realised..that without qihui..i think i'll end up going mad with my own thoughts..seriously, i think she understands me the best..sad to say..prob better than my own parents..i would really have to agree that the more u wanna tie down a person..the more a person wanna be free..or in other words..the more u wanna control me, the more rebellious i become..

however, yeah..i know my limit..i still know wats right..i messed up my life for the past 2 years already..i think i know wat i shld do now..i made a wrong move and now it's time to move back to the right track..nothing is ever too late..like they say u're nvr too old to stop learning..

anyway, there's only a few things i'm worried abt now..first and most imptly is exams!! they're like in 2 weeks!! 2nd is harj..dear,i know there are many things that u're stress abt..but turning to smoking will not help..i seriously dunno how to talk to u in person..coz i know u can be very stubborn esp once u hav made up ur mind..sigh..3rd..fan club!! gosh..i nitto start pooling for ideas..tentative release for my fan club is e week after exams!! exciting..4th..financial side..i need another job!!ok..actually the most impt now is the exam part.. =(

sad things aside!!! now the happy stuff.. today qihui and i had sakae for dinner..i'm sick of fast food!! den we went to macs and had hot chocolate for drink whilst we sat there and i updated my blog..hee..look wat the lady did to our hot choc..looks soooo delicious!!

doesnt our hot chocolate look so yummy?? hee..

scribbled by =CaLiStA= at 12:34:00 AM